Recognizing, How I Set Myself Up ... For Failure

Struggling with my weight since the age of 11 ... I've had many small victories that were soon erased with big gains ... and the absolute hardest part of being a yo-yo dieter was reaching a certain point ... mentally etching it in my mind ... only to re-gain and find myself back at what was a prior victory point months later ... realizing that I could have been so much further along if I had never stopped...

As they say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results ... This past year I've really had to take a look at myself and dissect what made me fall short of my weight loss goals time and time again. I know much of it was immaturity and lack of knowledge concerning diet and effective weight loss ... but I had to / still am finding out what actions and/or thoughts continue to set me up for failure ... Once faced ... then, and only then, can I succeed long-term ...

Unrealistic Goals: "I need to lose at least 10lbs a week." I mean, I honestly used to set goals like that for myself ... confident that in 10 weeks ... voilà ... I'd be skinny! ... lol ... Now someone else may have been able to accomplish this ... but when I discovered (even after starving myself) it wasn't happening ... I'd get discouraged ... and then ... quit.

Plateaus: I usually hit a major plateau every 2-3 months or so of doing really well shedding the pounds ... that's my pattern ... and no matter what I do in that timeframe ... the scale does not move!!! (it's been the case for the past month too, until yesterday ;)... Then, I'd eat out of spite ... basically with the notion that if I eat right and still cant lose weight ... what's the point??? ... I might as well be eating what I want!!!

Celebration: You've lost 15lbs Paula ... go ahead ... you deserve that Whopper w/ cheese meal ... and that McDonald's breakfast the following morning ... and that Snickers bar positioned right next to the granola bar in the vending machine ... and that (well you get the point) ...

I'm far from perfect even far from my goal ... but in order to take control of this long-term abusive love of food and challenges with being active ... I must figure out and rectify all that has hindered me ... even though it's ME ...

~PC

Today's Summary

B: Oatmeal w/ Raisins (203cals)

S: Plain Yogurt, Mandarin Oranges (120cals)

L: Grilled Tilapia w/ fresh Green Beans (130cals)

S: Red Pear (80cals)

D: Progresso Veggie Soup (70cals)

S: Broccoli w/ Ranch dip (80cals)

Total Calories: 710

Water: 129oz

Exercise: Boxing Basics ses #3 1 Hour, 45 Minutes Treadmill